hey
(i miss this)

"Pablo, I'm sorry Paolo. Great job on your test, and I won't forget it."

That's what Paul Paskoff, my HIST2055 professor, said upon handing me my exam. I scored an A, and whether or not Paul Paskoff remembers it or not, I will, because that grade kind of confirmed my place at LSU.

I'm doing really well in class. The As have been rolling since I got here. Two of them came after I filled out 50 questions on Scantron sheets. Scantron sheets are like Delaney cards and lunch money in that I haven't seen them since the 8th grade. The 8th grade, I think, is also the last time I felt confident in myself as a writer, thinker, or student.

There's something to say for sure when I can transfer to less prestigious LSU and:
1. Get better grades
2. Feel smarter and more confident
3. Take classes I want to take
4. Generally, have a much better education
5. Pay less $$


Maybe what I'm getting at is that my education has, in a lot of ways, regressed- the classes are easier, my mind thinks less, the concepts have become less conceptual and more simple and practical. But in spite of that, I'm kind of experiencing an academic renaissance...?


For a few years, I thought that I could roll with the geniuses and overachievers at school, but I couldn't. I think in some ways, I am a genius and I am an overachiever (mostly concerning things like puzzles, analyzing sports, Scrabble, spelling, crossword puzzles, interpersonal relationships, self-reference, party-planning, and generally having a good eye for fashion). But if my education doesn't involve one of those 9 things, I don't do very well...
It is what it is. I don't really know how to interpret stuff like this yet.

I also:
6. Am with my girlfriend
7. As a student, receive ridiculously cheap tickets every home game for the best team in college football (Only $94 for 7 home games. Some tickets to this Saturday's LSU-Florida game are worth up to $2,000.)
8. Don't have many friends here

Number 8 sticks out. It is the only thing I really sacrificed by transferring from New College FL. Whatever. It's been good to learn to live without an excess of social support. My individuality has probably been constrained the past few years as friendships bubbled around me. I'm looking forward to seeing what alone time and anonymity is like.

Anyway, looks like I made a good choice. I visited New College of Florida this weekend, but in my rush to spend quality time with everyone, I couldn't really give anyone a good update on how I was doing. I hope this was a good one. I'm just coming down from my high on getting my 4th A in a row, so unfortunately, this note kind of looks like garbage to me now.

9: My school has a live bengal tiger on campus as its mascot.

hey school's (lsu) going well and i really like my classes-- media persuasion, visual communication, accounting, us history, & geography.
if you don't know me by now, i transferred colleges and i'm studying advertising.

also, in an attempt to make myself more official, i started 4 new e-mail accounts. they are
paoloroy69@yahoo.com
paoloroy69@gmail.com
paoroy@yahoo.com
paoroy@gmail.com

which 1 should i use??
i'd like to settle on one of them. my two current email addresses are
spiralinghalo@yahoo.com and
www.paolo@gmail.com
i like yahoo more than gmail though.
to explain the 69, my birthday is june 9th.

I thought I would come back.

I'll be on livejournal soon and again, I just wanted to break the exciting ice after not writing for the longest time. Leave me messages if you read this.

Hello,

Danielle will be at New College from this Thursday until next Thursday!
Oh, I'm back in the game. The livejournal game. I'm a player.

As you may or may not have noticed, I didn't mention Danielle in a livejournal entry for the first time since probably the day I kissed her. That was just a brief lapse in my infatuation with?/for?/towards? her though and it was probably a good break. I think she's/you're the only one who reads this though, and like me, I can only imagine that she broods over entries that don't include her name. On a few different journals and sometimes on my Friendslist, I Ctrl+F my name and only chose to read things with "paolo" in them.

I was thinking of writing an entry like: "It's 6:55 and the sun is coming up, there's gum in mouth that I'm trying not to chew that I've had there since the party last night that started at 10. (holy shit gum for 9 hours.) i got so drunk but life is beautiful, and i cried two nights ago listening to coldplay. i love my friends" or something like that- def sarcastic but not really because i used to post things like that as recent as dec 04 2005. anyway i was just thinking what i could post that i would a: regret in a week b: regret if i checked random entries three years from now c: never ever regret.
i think there are a few never-regrets. such as my condiment tournament poll from august 2003...

i couldn't find it but i did find this one from the same month: http://www.livejournal.com/poll/?id=169086
click it click it click it.

danielle and i will celebrate our much anticipated 15 month anniversary (longest ever) tomorrow. not even today- that's how widely anticipated it is. we are good. i hope we're not doing presents for this one because in a few more days it'll be valentine's day=assumed present day.

i have to say, celebrating an anniversary doesn't mean much if you can't imagine you doing it again, as in double. as in knowing we can celebrate a 30 month anniversary somewhere down the line. i have to say i think we can do it. i just have to.
we're good. we got along really well in louisiana this past january (a lot of good sex) and we're only getting closer. ldr is rough, but we've been dealing with it better than ever and it's 7:08AM and i'll call her after i type this but i bet we'll talk for a good hour and a half cause that's how good we are..(she'll be grumpy at first but then we'll have a good conversation).

I'll post more often!
Oh-
My classes are:

Advanced Poetry
Advanced Drawing
Sculpture 1
Elementary Spanish 2
Newsmagazine Editing 1 (I'm the Opinions editor for my school paper! No but seriously)

Oh- and I work out now.
We work out now.

Paolo and Danielle

August 2003- as you may realize from going back about 500 livejournal posts- was the time i first became someone i like today. i hope that in like 2011, february 2007 will be a little similar.

since i haven't posted in about 3 months (dec 06, jan 07 were the only missed months since my livejournal's inception: August 2002) since i haven't posted in about 3 months, this entry and near-subsequent entries will probably be (for me at least) more about my livejournal than about myself.

August 2003- as you may realize from going back about 500 livejournal posts- was the time i first became someone i like today. i hope that in like 2011, february 2007 will be a little similar.

since i haven't posted in about 3 months (dec 06, jan 07 were the only missed months since my livejournal's inception: August 2002) since i haven't posted in about 3 months, this entry and near-subsequent entries will probably be (for me at least) more about my livejournal than about myself.

well, well well paolo.

hey i'm depressed. the sun is okay though. just because it sets later doesn't mean it doesn't stay out at all. and my mom is okay though. because she and i talk more often, and she tells me about her boyfriend who broke up with her and i tell her about my girlfriend who i broke up with but still love too much. she might move to harlem and that's good. my brother is going good places too. and danielle is okay and i want to get back together with her now. i'm depressed but it's okay because i know more about depression than i ever have. i think we might get back together, but in a paolo-danielle way. i bet there are a lot of paolo-danielle ways.
i will put a title on each of my posts now so i can check back on them in 2 years and know what's in them from Calendar view mode, because the best part of this entry is in 2 years when i read this.
and i miss you a lot, friend.
and today is the day of the dead, and i made a candy skull today that was supposed to commemorate someone who died, but i've never had someone close to me die. i won't wait but i might want to get it out of my way.
oh and i'm going to get an HIV test back tomorrow for the first time ever, and in so many ways i want to have it so i can be freer. and loved. and appreciate everything a lot more than i do now.
and sitting on the dock of the bay watching the tide roll away.

I stood by the playground at the edge of Fort Tryon Park and talked to Paolo on the phone awhile before getting on the subway. We talked about the value of suffering, reflecting, and situating experiences within narratives—how all of that deepens action and makes living worthwhile because without it we have little to truly offer others and how the absence of it is neither fulfilling nor healthy for me.
Melanie

I just wrote my mom a sad email cause I can be so desperate sometimes.
Kerem, my friend and roommate, plays Sleep the Clock Around by Belle and Sebastian every day, and now I do too, and I think it's kind of the only thing that makes me know that time passes and it passes well.
I don't really feel capable to put myself in a better state.
(Except Texas maybe)

I've been latching on to the sports teams that I love so much and the players on those teams. I root for Danielle's school LSU and it breaks my heart. I'll still root for them. They lost to Florida last night and it breaks my heart just as much (as rooting for my ex's football team).
At least I have the Mets (I think).

My brother turned 18 in Germany. That means he's an adult. He's still 17 in New York though, and in Sarasota.
He's all I think about kind of, he's all I really want to think about.
I actually don't think about him at all.
He's going to make me cry.
Happy birthday little brother!

what happened to the dark days,
and the really dark days,
when i had to take the 6 from school and transfer the e to union turnpike and the 46 to springfield blvd and walk past alley pond park to 69th avenue and talk to myself or listen to the weakerthans for the first few times i ever heard them, and i clapped my hands to keep myself warm and distracted,
and the sun didn't shine on my dorm room,
and the clouds let me desperate,
and the sun hurt me so much.

new college is great!
i miss how much new york sucked,
because it sucked for me but it sucked for everyone else.

it's like the mets winning in the bottom of the ninth inning

let the cool goddess rust away
chicago
velocity girl
heartbeats
the good life
slow jamz
always be my baby
dreams
fake plastic trees
life on mars?
decatur, or
like a rock

clap your hands,
sufjan stevens
snow patrol
the knife
weezer
kanye
mariah
the knife
radiohead
seu jorge
sufjan stevens
bob seger

The library is not a cold dead place.

Sometimes an angel will hurt you.

I can't forgive.

Pelicans.

Any time I make a mistake, it runs away from me really slowly so I can catch up to it.

Heaven is a place.

Danielle. Danielle.

I missed her up.

what's the difference between steve irwin and tantric sex?





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